Leaving soon....trip almost planned.

I´ll be away for 8 days from Saturday on. I dont know how long ago was the last time I have left Berlin for more than 4-5 days.
I have my flight ticket to Rimini, I´ll be landing in the afternoon and my sister will be waiting for me. It´s more than a year ago since last time she came and pick me up at the airport, so it will be very, very nice. At least I wont struggle with trains, buses and so on.
On Monday and Tuesday I´ll be in Siena. I have booked my hotel, in the very centre of the city. I´ll write some emails, maybe on Monday night I can have dinner with some friends, though I am not very sure I am very in the mood to see the people I have left there.
My sister will come and pick me up on Tuesday. Then I´ll be at my parents place - or at my sister´s one, depending on how long will I stand staying at my parents - until Saturday or even Sunday.
I´ll relax, I´ll eat a lot, I´ll go shopping.
But I really dont want to see anybody else than my family and my grandparents. But I guess I´ll be forced to leave my parents house and go somewhere. Or maybe I could try to look as bad as possible, so my mum wont ever allow me to leave the house....mmmmmmmmmmh I should think about that, maybe it´s not that bad idea....

Have a nice autumn, you all

Popup Illegal Art Happening

Have a look at what is happening in Ancona: Popup Illegal Art Happening
Many artists involved such as Raymond Pettibon, Ozmo, Blue, Paperesistance and many others.

Sarah Palin´s email account has been hacked

Click here you if want to read her emails.

She was using her private email for governative matters. So, if she was so dumb not to protect her email at all, how will she behave when she will have infos about the security of the United States Of America?

The 25 best Grunge Records

Here's a list of the 25 best grunge records. Note that the list is random and the number next to the record does NOT correspond to the importance of the record.

So, here we go:

1. Soundagarden "Ultramega OK"
2. Green River "Rehab Doll"
3. Mudhoney (here above pictured) "Superfuzz Bigmuff"
4. Tad "God's Balls"
5. Nirvana "Bleach"
6. Mother Love Bone "Apple"
7. Temple Of The Dog "Temple Of The Dog"
8. Seaweed "Despised"
9. Pearl Jam "Ten"
10. Mind Funk "Mind Funk"
11. The Afghan Whigs "Congregation"
12. Love Battery "Dayglo"
13. L7 "Bricks Are Heavy"
14. V.A. "Singles OST"
15. Gruntruck "Push"
16. Nirvana "Nevermind"
17. Stone Temple Pilots "Core"
18. Screaming TRees "Sweet Oblivion"
19. Alice In Chains "Dirt"
20. Hammerbox "Dirt"
21. Shashing Pumpkins "Siamese Dream"
22. Melvins "Houdini"
23. Pearl Jam "Vs."
24. Soundgarden "Superunknown"
25. Mad Season "Above"
    

Palast der Republik

This is, or better this was, the Parliament in the formal East Berlin. Despite strong resentments, in November 2003 the German parliament decided to demolish the building and leave the area as a parkland until funding for the reconstruction of the Berlin City Palace could be found. A parkland??? As if in Berlin there is this huge need of parkland!!! And they spent a lot of money for the deconstruction of the bulding and now they dont have any to re-build anything? Well, that doesnt surprise me, Berlin s not a very rich city, but so what's the point of deconstruct such a big palace if you have no money.
Demolition started on February 6, 2006 and was scheduled to last about
15 months and to cost 12 millions euro. The Palast der Republik is actually still under deconstruction and this is how the Palast looks like now.
About 35,000 tonnes of steel that once held this bulding together are now being shipped to United Arab Emirates to be used on the construction of the Burj Dubai.

If you want to know more about the story of the Palast der Republik or if you more simply are interested in seeing how beautiful Berlin is, you can watch this video .

Bye Rick. Keep on shining you too.

The best 111 Guitar Moments (according to musikexpress - August 2008)

1. John Lee Hooker " Boogie Chillen"
2. Johnny Cash "I Walk The Line"
3. Bo Diddley "Hey Bo Diddley"
4. Link Wray "Rumble"
5. Chuck Berry "Johnny B. Goode"
6. Booker T. & The MG´s "Green Onions"
7. Dick Dale & His Del-Tones "Misirlou"
8. The Kinks "You Really Got Me"
9. The Who "Anyway, Anyhow, Anywhere"
10. The Beatles "And The Bird Can Sing"
11. The Byrds "Eight Miles High"
12. The Jimi Hendrix Experience "Drivin´ South"
13. The Velvet Underground "I´m Waiting For The Man"
14. Pink Floyd "Astronomy Domine"
15. Jimi Hendrix "Purple Haze"
16. The Velvet Underground "Sister Ray"
17. The Rolling Stones "Sympathy For The Devil"
18. Creedence Clearwater Revival "Walk On The Water"
19. Love "Alone Again Or"
20. Cream "Crossroads"
21. The Beatles "Helter Skelter"
22. Jeff Beck "Beck´s Bolero"
23. The Rolling Stones "Monkey Man"
24. Jimi Hendrix "The Star Spangled Banner"
25. The Stooges "I Wanna Be Your Dog"
26. Grateful Dead "Dark Star"
27. Blind Faith "Presence Of The Lord"
28. Can "You Doo Right"
29. James Brown "Get Up (I Feel Like Being A) Sex Machine"
30. Black Sabbath "Black Sabbath"
31. Deep Purple "Fireball"
32. Led Zeppelin "Stairway To Heaven"
33. Deep Purple "Smoke On The Water"
34. Steely Dan "Reelin´IN The Years"
35. Carlos Santana "Song Of The Wind"
36. Iggy And The Stooges "Search And Destroy"
37. T.Rex "20th Century Boy"
38. ZZ Top "La Grange"
39. Brian Eno "Baby´s On Fire"
40. Neil Young "On The Beach"
41. Queen "Killer Queen"
42. Van Der Graaf Generator "Meurgleys III"
43. Eagles "Hotel California"
44. Ramones "BlitzkriegBop"
45. Television "Marquee Man"
46. Queen "We Will Rock You"
47. Sex Pistols "Holidays In The Sun"
48. David Bowie "Heroes"
49. Pink Floyd "Sheep"
50. Dire Straits "Sultan Of Swing"
51. Pink Floyd "Comfortably Numb"
52. The Clash "London Calling"
53. The Cure "Killing An Arab"
54. The Dixie Dregs "The Bash"
55. AC/DC "Highway To Hell"
56. Gange Of Four "Damaged Goods"
57. Frank Zappa "Yo´Mama"
58. Joy Division "Atrocity Exhibition"
59. Bob Marley & The Wailers "Could You Be Loved"
60. Grauzone "Eisbär"
61. Paul Simon "Allergies"
62. The Smiths "This Charming Man"
63. Van Halen "Jump"
64. Prince & The Revolution "Purple Rain"
65. Metallica "Masters Of Puppets"
    
66. The Smiths "There Is A Light That Never Goes Out"
    
67. Dinosaur Jr. "Little Fury Things"
68. Metallica "One"
69. U2 "Where The Streets Have No Name"
70. Sonic Youth "Cross The Breeze"
    
71. Pixies "Vamos"
72. The Stone Roses "I Am The Resurrection"
73. Steve Vai "Blue Powder"
74. Steve Ray Vaughan "Little Wing"
75. Talk Talk "Myrrhman"
76. My Bloody Valentine "To Here Knows When"
77. Neil Young "Like A Hurricane"
78. Nirvana "Smells LIke Teen Spirit"
79. Red Hot Chili Peppers "Under The Bridge"
80. Megadeth "Symphony Of Destruction"
81. Rage Against The Machine "Know Your Enemy"
82. Nirvana "Frances Farmer WIll Have Never Revenge On Seattle"
83. Beck "Loser"
84. Radiohead "Creep"
85. Smashing Pumpkins "Soma"
86. G.Love And Special Sauce "Shooting Hoops"
87. Blumfeld "Verstärker"
88. Weezer "Undone (The Sweater Song)"
89. Pavement "Grounded"
90. Oasis "Champagne Supernova"
91. Pulp "Disco 2000"
92. Mike Watt Feat. J. Mascis "Maggot Brain"
93. Built To Spill "Stop The Show"
94. Radiohead "Paranoid Android"
95. Blur "Song 2"
96. The Jesus And Mary Chain "I Hate Rock´n´Roll"
97. Nine Inch Nails "The Fragile"
98. At The Drive-In "One Arm Scissor"
99. System Of A Down "Toxicity"
100. The Strokes "Last Night"
101. The LIbertines "Tell The King"
102. Queens Of The Stone Age "No One Knows"
103. White Stripes "Seven Nation Army"
104. Wilco "At Least That´s What You Said"
105. Franz Ferdinand "Take Me Out"
106. Babyshambles "Fuck Forever"
107. Maximo Park "Graffiti"
108. Mastodon "Cycle Of Cysquatch"
109. Muse "Assassin"
110. Wilco "Impossible Germany"
111. Mars Volta "Goliath"

What do you think? I dont agree with many of the entries. For example: why are Babyshambles in here? Why just one Who song? Pete Townsend is probably one of the best guitar player alive!
And why not any Mudhoney track? And what about "Alive" by Pearl Jam? That is one of the most

Mara Carfagna

This woman, age 33, is the one who changed the Italian law against prostituition. Seeing this picture somebody can think that maybe she is an expert on the subject. Well, in a way yes.
According to the law she just wrote, prostitutes and clients can get both arrested and they can spend in jail from 5 to 15 days. In addition a fee from € 200 to € 3000 is applied. Sell you own body in the streets it is a crime, but this funny law doesnt say anything about selling your own body in your own flat. The law is saying that the prostitution in private place (flats, hotels, and so on) is not legal but is not a crime neither.
What on earth is that supposed to mean?
In addition nobody thought about the fact that not longer than 3 days ago everybody in the Italian Parliament was talking about the problem of the overpopulation of the Italian jails and they were arguing about how could they solve this matter.

This is a joke and it isnt even a funny one.
According to the law she just wrote she should be the first one to be in jail. Isnt she selling herself in the above picture? Isnt she in Parliament just because she had/has a very tight and personal connection with the Prime Minister?

As a woman, I am sincerely offended. I really am. And when I am thinking that she is the Minister of Equal Opportunity, well, I am even more offended.

This morning thoughts...

This morning I woke up at 7 thinking that:

• It´s great waking up early in the morning and seeing the sun rising, the sky changing his color and the birds start singing
• I regret not having a balcony, otherwise I could have had my breakfast on the morning chill, as today and tomorrow will be the last "warm" day of the summer and from Saturday on the temperature in Berlin should decrease until 15 (!) in the day and 6 (!!!) in the night
• after reading the weather forecast I though that it is maybe time to replace my summer clothes with the winter ones
  
• now that I began writing my thesis I should get used to wake up much earlier in the morning, as I did when I was a student
• I still have to study a lot for my exams
• I should trsut any man who owns more shoes than I do

The last thought actually shocked me, so I tried to stop thinking.
But really, I cant get rid of this thought.

Right now I am already thinking about my "Feierabend". I want to go buying some LPs in Prenzlauer Berg and then stop having a glass of wine.
That sounds like a great plan actually.

Thursday

I woke up early this morning. I took a shower, I made myself a coffee and I have start working on my thesis... I love sleeping, but there is nothing like seeing a day rising, alone, in silence.

Still headache

This is really driving me crazy now. With a lot of other, different things, but this is driving me crazy.

And it´s only getting worste

When I´m out with my friends he keeps on calling me every second minute. I called him now, as we normally talk before he´s going to work and, as he was out with his friends, he got pissed and asked me why I called him and he had that annoying voice.

I cant stand this anymore. I´m just trying to be as calm as I can, but it seems so difficult right now.

We have plans for a future together, but can we talk about "together" if we cant even talk properly?

And this should be a good day according to my horoscope...

I woke up I was still dreaming one of those kind of dreams so real, that when you wake up you cannot understand where you are and if what you dreamt actually happened or not.
It was one of those dreams you dont want to wake up from. It was one of those dreams you would like to remember but as soon as you try to remember, you already forgot.
It was the first dream - not a nightmare finally! - since ages. I dont even remember when was the last time I had a nice dream.

I had breakfast alone, as usual. Why my boyfriend should stay up to have breakfast with me after one year we are together? No point in doing that, especially when he knows I hate having breakfast alone. I drank my coffee alone and ate my jogurth alone, then I took a cup of coffee and brought it to him.

I had my bike on his backyard, so I took his keys, went downstairs, took the bike and came upstairs to bring him back his keys. My boyfriend lives in the 4th floor.

I took my bike, put my iPod on and went. After 10 minutes my back wheel was completely flat. The same wheel I have just repaired last week, exactly the one that I have bought brand new after somebody burnt my bike. I locked my bike - once I used to call it "Rocket", now I think I can just call it "Little Skeleton"- to a fence near the S-Bahn stop (and lucky me I was near the S-Bahn) and I came to work.

It´s more than one hour and I sitting here at my desk doing personal stuff - skyping with my sister, reading the newspaper, reading gossips, updating my facebook - and I dont want to waste 8 hours of my precious time that way. I´ll probably leave earlier, in order to fix my bike and do some other important stuff - like studying, for instance, or pick up my shoes.

Now first coffee and cigarette of the day. It can only improve, I suppose.

Headache

Exactly one week with a continuous headache. Bad, bad, bad. I´ve started now to take at least one painkiller per day, in addition I´m taking two magnesium pills per day. It seems the magnesium is working better than the aspirin, but still the headache is there.

" es wuchs eines Tages mit kleinen Köpfen beiderseits aus meiner Haut
zu dritt dann morgens im Spiegel haben wir uns angeschaut
und habens nicht geglaubt – so unvertraut"

Yoox

Funny funny funny. My boyfriend yesterday discovered Yoox. It is funny how men can become narcisistic and found of themselves sometimes. He had said all day that he needed a new pair of jeans, so when he came back to work I suggested to check if theyhad nice ones on Yoox.
"What's Yoox?" he asked me.
Then he understood and he quickly became kind of addicted to it. He got pissed out twice, once because I was looking at handbags for me (he even said "You all are just the same! When it comes to do your shopping you're 100% concentrated, but when it comes to help your man then you dont care!" I actualy found this very sweet), the second one because he thought I had forgotten what he wanted to buy, but, of course, I had already put it on my basket.
He finally bought a pair of nice jeans and a shirt.
This morning when he woke up one of the first things he asked me was: "When do you think my package will arrive?" "Not later than next Friday" I have told him. He seemed satisfied....

If you dont what Yoox is, click here

Lately I can just listen to...

"Ende Neu" by Einstürzende Neubauten

I recommend listening to:
"Ende Neu"
"The Garden"











"Silence Is Sexy" by Einstürzende Neubauten

I recommend listening to:
"Silence is Sexy"
"Redutk"












"Alles Wieder Offen" by Einstürzende Neubauten

I recommend listening to:
"Die Wellen"
"Ich Hatte Ein Wort"
"Alles Wieder Offen"
"Ich Warte"












"Black Celebration" by Depeche Mode

I recommend listening to:
"Stripped"
"A Question Of Lust"
"Dressed In Black"

Morning Thoughts

When we got to know each other it was almost 10 years ago. 10 years! I can clearly remember every single word you told me that night.
Once a month I would like to talk to you, I would like to give you a call and talk about the books you bought, the records you listened to, the stories you invented, the changes you made to your house. I am even concerned if your dogs are doing good. You know I always liked them so much.
But then I start thinking it´s maybe too much calling you and then I always start writing you a letter that I´ll never send. I´m too scared to break your balance, especially now it seems to me you found one and I definitely dont want to be the one that screw up everything.

It hasnt been easy between us, you arent an easy one, my dear, and so am I. We should have understood it right from the beginning, when I gave you a cd where somebody was singing that "you´re the truth, not I" and you gave me one where somebody was singing that "there is a light that never goes out".
You are the one with hope, I should have get it right from the beginning.
You loved me unconditionally but you also so much, that looking back now I dont know how I made it through everything. Probably because I know you didnt hurt me on purpose, it was just your way to protect me. You always had weird ways to protect people around you and you still have. After so many years you´re still protecting me and now it´s my turn to protect you.
I am guessing that it´s not easy for her to understand and accept certain things and she is probably feeling better when I am as far as I am right now. I totally understand that. She´s right. She is probably not the most beautiful girl in the world, but she definitely smart, nice and, more important, she loves you. I like her and I dont want to do her any harm.
If I would get in contact with you, instead of writing to you here, could do you harm, I know that, and I could do her harm too. So I get to the conclusion that I can just avoid writing/calling you, if this is better for so many people. Except for me, but I can ask my friends about you and knowing you´re doing good it´s more than enough for me.

We both have something that will remind of each other as time goes by.