19.08.2008

Today should be one of my good days according to my Horoscop. It is also saying that I should try to be creative and inspired and that I should try to shut up regarding some question that I dont like that much. Well, thanks a lot for the usefull information, I do know that I always have to shut up as when I am saying what I am actually thinking I just make problems....

It has been an hard night again. Couldnt sleep, I was freezing, bad dreams and so on. I am wondering when all this will come to an end. I cant stand anymore waking up and being already tired, as I havent been able to sleep properly. I am thinking if I cant sleep, how will I ever dream again?

At least I have a pretty busy week:

• I still have to decide when I will go to Italy to solve my University paperwork and this will definitely take a while. Planning such a short trip is always a useless stress. Going there for such a short period is always a useless stress. Going there is always a useless stress.

• Some time ago I have lost the certificate that states that I am living in Berlin. I really didnt care that much, as I didnt actually need it. But two weeks ago I went to the beautiful library in Potsdamer Str and they told me that to bring the books home they need this certificate. So I probably have to wake up extremely early tomorrow morning and going to the related office and make a duplicate of the certificate. With no books I cant begin writing my thesis properly.

• My shoes are all broken. I dont know how I can manage to break all my shoes. I need to throw away all my sneakers, they all have such big holes that I am kind of ashamed to wear them. My boots are beginning to melt on the top, my cowboy boots are all broken inside and to take them off is nearly impossible, my new shoes already broke, but I´ll try to bring them back and see what the girl in the shop says.
  

• Need to go to the Public Library, which is actually one of the best thing I have to do this week as I love going to the Library. I feel safe and calm.
  

• Need to go buying some books for my thesis and this sucks, as buying booky means spending money and if normally I dont care that much, lately I am kind of more carefull...

• Need to go to my German class and find also another German school, as the one I am currently going is too expensive and I wont afford another intensive course there, unfortunately. So, if anybody knows a cheap and good Language School in Berlin, please let me know.
  

In the meantime I also have to work and study.

Wasnt life supposed to be more than that?